strange and random

are things that happen day to day.
even the feelings you have, are crazy
and volatile.
you want to sit- no- stand,
talk- i hate talking, go walking...but
i'd rather stay home and cook- then again, i hate cooking.
fucking mad, fucking mental case
can't cry, can't stop worrying, panicking,
choosing and resenting choices and wanting
to be out of this world and on a cruise ship
sailing to outer space.