by default

i got to know this person
by default.
lets see.... well, the person isn't as important
as this memory that i have
of long ago, when, as a child
i witnessed the wonders of
knowing little things like
someone's name, or recalling
a particular thread of thought
or even tracing a drawing,
a feeling of being free,
being irresponsible and still
being cared for,
and also fear, or the lack of it
which scares me now,
i trusted everything too much,
volatile and easily flammable is
childhood, little dreams
cannot be revived and restored.