Ten novels I love

1. The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy (five of them)

2. Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency

3. The Secret Life Of  Sebastian Knight

4. The God Of Small Things

5. Insects are just like you and me, except some of them have wings

6. Treasure Island

7. Invisible Cities

8. Sputnik Sweetheart

9. Wuthering Heights

10. Sherlock Holmes series

ten movies I love

1. Blade Runner- sci fi, dystopian futuristic synthetic landscape

2. In the Mood for Love- romance

3. Cloud Atlas- mixed genre

4. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind- romance with sci fi elements

5. Fight Club- psychological mindfuck

6. Hero- martial arts

7. Moon- sci fi

8. Star Wars- space opera

9. Hotel Chevalier- shot film (romance)

10. Rushmore- coming of age story 

how to be a farmer

Can't make excuses, because the day goes and never comes back. Can't stop, everyday is vital. Can't complain, you won't be eating otherwise. History is to be treasured and functions as an anchor point from whence you walk into a better creation of your future.

Enjoy your free time, don't fret, be sad but don't despair. Everything leads to death, even life so be comforted in suffering. Pull out those weeds, water those good thoughts as you water the soil. The truth of the matter is you are alone, but you don't have to be. 

1. Think visually.

2. Don't be afraid.

3. Put the effort

4. Move on

5. Believe

6. Do it

7. Believe

8. Believe

9. Believe.

10. Make it Done.

unknown

We do not know when we will die. That's as far as I've got. I never know how to start things, how to begin- it is a simple matter of the left foot forward and then the right or is it just impossible existential crisis of faith and despair, the cosmos of unending meaningless choices that come full circle.

I- there unleashed, the mighty, self serving and violent phoneme that is I. It rolls off the tongue, smooth and ends with a satisfying release of air toward the end. 'I' see only 'I' and beyond is the vast unexplored wilderness of 'They and 'Them'. A line you draw in the sand, separate from, different from.

It is easy for us snuggle into depression. It must be the coziest spot in the room, one lunges at it, the incomparable ecstasy that comes from holding the switch of self destruction, the power to tear yourself apart, no body else can do it to you because you can laugh at their face once last time in some kind of nihilistic triumph.

write

I'm going to write like I mean it,
my life is a bore, my friends are ajar
at the doors of their own perception,
my imagination is wider than my scope
of words and my heart pounces on love,
i'm crazy about life but i am not living
like i should, i give into fear, FEAR that
breaks my bones, cuts my tongue, makes me
cold, like a corpse, like ashes man! when
did i become someone so cruel, so dishonest, so limp,
so closed up, so.

Learn fucker, walk, take a bloody step ahead i will not die in this process,
i am dead now but I can resurrect, I can be bold, love fucker, love stop being
so fucking miserable in this self imposed circus of loneliness and hopelessness,
refusing to see other people, to simply gaze and appreciate like a child, when did
i go so so old and rigid that a simple exchange can shatter me.

its pathetic how i pressurize my brain to forget, those brilliant, amazing, life altering moments
i lived a time ago, i live them still, how can i forget like i don't know them from before, to feel again, to treasure that time isn't a failure, it is a triumph, it happened, it existed man, shameful the way i looked away until i could see nothing, just the darkness, just the white page of dissonance.
  

Your eyes stray from my formulas

my poems don't impress you

my songs don't move you

my praises distract you

my fingers grow pale at the

sight of your skin

Your fine lips don't linger

on mine

But you see the little things

My grand gestures fail at the sight of

my ordinaries,

Your sense of these fumblings,

these less than perfect yearnings,

You are brave and i'm wrong

When I think you are like the others before,

I won't find you when i climb the mountain,

I've found you already on the pasture lands below.